Memoirs of a Rose
I came into Esther on the 31st of August 2017. Two and a half years ago.
I don’t really remember much from that time. I was pretty quiet and cried a lot. I do remember being so confused by how happy everyone was, and how I wanted to know what it felt like to laugh again. My only motivation for the first few months was to be with my family again and rebuild my relationships with them.
Since being in Esther I have;
haven’t touched a single drug,
I’ve slept every night,
restored my relationship with my family,
completed a Certificate IV in Community Services,
made lifelong friends who have walked this journey with me,
forgiven myself and healed,
and met God.
I remember my mum saying “it’s so good to have you back, it’s like the old Rosanne again” and then we both realised that the old Rosanne is definitely not what I wanted to be. The old Rosanne was broken and hurt, but I am an entirely new creation.
I am proud of my journey and grateful for my healthy life, proud of myself for choosing life and continuing to choose life no matter what came up against me or tempted me. What I have gained here in Esther is nothing compared to what the world can give you.
The most beautiful thing I have realised is that God was there with me in those dark times, even when I didn’t know him. He guided my journey in Esther, I prayed for him to move in my life and to heal me from that abusive relationship and drug addiction and he has been with me every step of the way.